will make us 6.
since we discovered I was pregnant in august, I've wanted to tell everyone...everyone I meet, everyone I know, everyone I don't know...everyone, but I've been scared.
I miscarried in february and was shattered. I was 12 weeks along, which may not seem like a long time to some, but to me it was a lifetime. literally. it was a complete shock as we'd seen and heard the heart beating via ultrasound around 6 and a half weeks, and I was told that seeing a strong heartbeat that early reduced the risk of miscarrying to something like 4%. but something happened, and when I went back in for my 12 week appointment that little heart stopped beating. and we were devastated.
so this time around, I was hesitant to tell people in the fear that we would be back to february. I thought it was happening again tuesday when I woke up and noticed some blood. any blood-especially red blood-while pregnant is scary and I freaked. I was on the phone back and forth with the dr's office all day until finally, after talking to my sister, I demanded they get me in.
my doctor is awesome, and she wasted no time getting the gel on this belly and finding our baby's heartbeat. I hate crying in front of the girls, but when Birdie (who is practically an old pro at ob appointments by now) said to the doctor, "That's our baby's heart." I broke down. I cried because I cannot believe how God has blessed us and because I don't want to be scared anymore.
I want to give this pregnancy and baby the excitement and happiness and strength that he/she deserves, and that I did for all my other babies.
I know in my heart that everything is going to be perfect this time around. I know this. and that's why, I am BEYOND thrilled to announce that in april 2012 we will be welcoming our new baby...
(☺♥★☮♫♪ I'm pregnant ☺♥★☮♫♪)